Doushite?

Hi peeps..

I think I need to let out somewhere now because I'm bursting...

Suddenly.. I feel that things are really different from the past.. The life that I used to lead.. It's no longer the same.. It's not that I don't like this kinda life, but it's just a matter of getting used to it too. I'm trying hard you know.. To be accountable for many many things..

I think I'm going to be in depression mode.. This whole week is really bad, work and studies.. Stress and stress.. I've been juggling both every day of the week, and I have put in a lot of effort.. I've never played for a single day since last weekend.. Yet today is a Friday night, I just wanted to have a short break (and I didn't), but still things ended up bad..

I really dunno what is happening..

I feel that there are just a lot of things that I dunno.. It's all too vague.. Am I supposed to know them or maybe not supposed to know? Am I given expectations to meet? Am I useless to even hear about it? I really wonder if my existence matters since things can be handled alone..

Though telling me doesn't help, but I'd rather you share then to keep everything inside.. But maybe, it's really dumb to share with me cuz i'm of no help at all.. If in this case, just let me be then and just do things your way..