The feeling I have now is..

Undescribable.

I dun even know how to describe it.

Am I happy..? Am I'm unhappy..?

I think I'm both...

I'm happy.. Because, I have sweet people around me, whom I can feel that they are true and care for me. I can sense it deep in my heart. And I appreciate them.

But yet, I cannot truly enjoy this happiness.

For now..

I know.. Many things are already past tense, and have became memories. Memories which I do not touch on in my day-to-day life.

But probably.. Time is still not enough to put them all aside. To not think about them, and to move on and move on. It just seems so difficult. But I'm still trying..

I know its not fair to others by being so. But perhaps.. I'm really selfish..

Once again, I'm doing things that do not follow my heart..