Aloof or Calm?

Hahass.. I realised that I'm getting more and more aloof these days.

No matter what big things that are happening around me, I don't seemed to be reacting to the happenings at all. Or in nicer terms, you can say that I'm calm. Or aloof. Or anything. Probably I'm tired and don't have the energy to bother at this moment.

I feel that sometimes, things are really better off when left untouched for some period of time. To simmer down, to think things through, to reflect upon, to be enlightened, watever. Time is able to tell everything. What you initially thought, what you initially hoped for things to turn out to become. As time passes, there are bound to be changes. The hopes are no longer hopes, because they become the impossible to hope for or even think about. They can just be casted aside easily unlike before, because this is when we 'kan kai le'.

At the end of the day, the crucial part is whether we have grown. It may be better or worse (too bad). Things may have changed or remain unchanged but the best part is that we've learnt. To the extent that sometimes, we are no longer like who we are in the past because our mind-set is no longer the same as before. Our mind-set changes as time passes and at different stages, we become different persons.

Maybe this could explain why life is never smooth-sailing, but always full of happenings.

Things which have happened, which have created impact, those which have casted memories, are all difficult to erase. I know they have happened, but there seems to be no explanation on them. It's never easy to pretend that nothing has ever happened before, for me at least. So to use the 'kan kai' method, it's best not to think and bother about them. Especially when you know that no solution will work out even when you bother. Therefore, until the day comes, I shall leave it as it is.

Just like the title of my blog goes, "我学着坚强去面对,不让伤悲太过绝对". That's enough for now..