Rainy Days.

Ame ga furu desu.. This kinda weather never fails to make me feel lonely.

I hate it and yet love it. It balances.

Love it because.. it lets me ponder over things about myself.

Hate it because.. the 'down' feeling simply sux.

Suddenly I was thinking, heys, I'm single already..

Till date not many knows that I'm leading a single life already except for a few only. To some who are occasionally asking me questions about my relationship, I still don't have the courage to tell them about it. Questions like "When are you getting married?", "When are you buying a flat?", "How often do you meet him up?", "Where do you guys normally hang out?", I just brushed them off swiftly.

My life seems unchanged on the surface, but in fact the change is drastic. And I'm beginning to feel the broken pieces in my heart, unmended.. They are still aching, not on the loss but more on the wound.


The life of being single.. In my perspective..

No one's there to love you,
No one's there for you to love.

No one's there to go through your ups and downs,
No one's there for you to pour out your woes and listens.

No one's there to console you,
No one's there to share happy moments with you.

No one's there to bring you around,
No one's there to hold you when you are about to fall.

No one's there to give you a morning call everyday,
No one's there to let you nag at and squabble with.

When you show a weary face,
No one's there to give you a beary warm hug.

When you are sad,
No one's there to kiss you on your forehead and says: "Dear, it's okays I'm with you."

What is there..

A sense of lostness.
A weary you.
Some form of regret may fill up.
A quieter and calm you.

Does anyone out there agrees with me? I could have typed longer ya, but these are the essence I guess so. The more I type, the higher chances of me sinking into negative thoughts. Shoot! So I stopped.

But no matter what, someday.. Things gonna change.. I believe it will come..