Life is a journey..

Finally it's end of a working week. Weekend is here! (:

Much of my brain cells have been exhausted in my current job. Sometimes, I really wonder if I should look for an easier job with less stress? I would probably be leading a happier life. But on the other hand I will definitely suffer a pay cut, that's why I'm still hesitant about making that decision yet.. Haiz..

Managed to settle many issues at work this entire week. That was probably why I felt so relieved when I left the office today. Hmms.. At least I've overcomed an obstacle? (Though there are still many awaiting me ahead?!)

Okays.. Put work aside for now since its Saturday already. Suddenly, the relax ending of Friday turned out to be a not-so-nice one again..

I don't understand why some things cannot be let go.. Rather then holding on to it, wouldn't it be better to let go and feel lighter? I know it is hard, but try at least. They always say, whether happy or sad, we have to lead each day, so why not choose to be happy instead? It's with all the unhappiness that makes man live miserably. Hatred is the best analogy here, isn't it? And ya.. Happiness and unhappiness are both contagious, sad to say..

I don't understand how I can possibly be happy when things turn out differently and even beyond my control. Perhaps I'm always able to hide or show the emotions that I want. So when I'm smiling, it doesn't means that I'm happy. However when I'm down, I'm indeed feeling down..

I don't understand why I'm being treated this way.. Somehow I felt that my good will despite repetitive attempts, all appear to be futile.. Just because u have shut urself up from me and there's no where for me to enter.. Probably I still don't have the place in your heart which you are able to sacrifice something for me.. So don't tell me I'm important because I don't feel that I am..

So.. What am I supposed to do next..?