Learning to Cope With Stress.

I'm calm now~ Ya~ But still I needa blog out everything here so that I have somewhere to let out..

These few days at work has been sooo stressful, like fire-fighting! I keep getting 'shot' over and over again.. Until today, I finally broke down in office.

Yup.. But it was already after office hours, so most of my colleagues have gone home already. The reason why I broke down was because I felt so sucky and totally stressed up.. And that my boss seems not to trust me anymore! It all started when my supervisor came to me and told me about what my boss said about me. As I was already at a stress level close to the brim, after hearing what my boss said, I just couldn't control my emotions anymore.

But after talking to my supervisor, I felt better le. I know that he was trying hard to console me and remove the negative thoughts from my head and heart. He's right.. In the working world, what matters most is not the emotions or personal attacks and such, but rather the more important thing is to settle the problems or issues on hand..

And yeap.. Maybe I'm speculating too much..? Or maybe, I think too much about how my boss sets his expectations on me. That's why the pre-established pressure in myself plus, external pressure from happenings only led to further and uncontrollable negative thoughts!

And ya.. I shared all these with Sharn too.. (*Thanks for the console..) What he said is correct too. Work matter is work, no point brooding over it and bringing it to other parts of my life. And what happened has already happened.. If I can't dispute over it, the best thing I can do is to learn from the mistakes, then do what my boss wants as his way.

Moreover, I really should learn to take things easy.. I need to control my thoughts not to wander too far off from the real issue that I need to settle! From tomorrow onwards.. I shall not dwell too much on what negative comments that I may receive.. Because it only makes matter worse! It's a chain-linked thought. Whatever he may say to me.. I shall not be bothered anymore.

Therefore, I've decided.. Self-expectation is good but to a certain extent only.. Most importantly, I must stay focused on the work!

I tell myself..

I WANT TO DO IT!

I CAN DO IT!

I WILL DO IT!